Sometimes the world around me is crumbling. Of course it’s not actually crumbling, but it feels that way.
I start crying without really knowing why, because the pressure of something I don’t know what is gets too high. My heart beats with guilt, and my body feels weak of fatigue. Even when I don’t have anything to feel guilty about, and on days where I have no reason to feel fatigued.
I know part of the problem is, that I don’t exercise enough. Actually it might be the absolute biggest part of it. I’m lazy and even though I like taking a walk I rarely do so because I find it difficult to get out. It’s really just a matter of putting on a jacket and going outside, but it feels like I have to climb a mountain to do so. I know it will be better when it gets warmer. I hate being cold, so that’s also a factor right now.
It was easier back when I had a dog. Then I would go out and play with her (living in the countryside we rarely needed to walk her as she got plenty of exercise running around in our garden and in the fields).
I have to visit my sister more. She has a dog I can walk.