I wanted to write about religion, because it is something I care about.
I am not religious myself. I’m not calling myself an atheist or an agnostic or whatever other labels usable for non-religious people. I don’t like to label my lack of religious belief.
So why do I even care, right? Because I’m tired.
I’ve never fully understood why it’s so important for some non-religious people to “prove” that there isn’t any God out there and honestly I get a little angry when I hear people say that it’s wrong to be religious. I’m probably never going to understand why people can be like that. But I’m probably never going to understand what having strong faith in something I cannot see feels like. Amazing, I tend to think.
Technically I’ve grown up in a Christian society, but it’s not something that I’ve really noticed. Most of my friends don’t even go to church on holidays. I’ve never been to a wedding in a church, but I’ve been to funerals. For me this means, that I often get emotional if I visit a church. I’m not saying it’s a bad thing, but it is something I feel every time I set foot inside.
It’s not like I’m starting to cry, but I feel this icy ball in my chest and sometimes it gets overwhelming. I think it’s incredible and it always makes me think that there really is something about churches. I can’t say what it is.
I like to discuss religion with people who are religious. I love hearing different views on religious ways and I find the belief in something superior inspiring. I really get how much poetry is influence by religion.
Unfortunately I can’t say that I know much about different kinds non-western religion and it makes me feel so ridiculously uncultured. We’ve had studied on religion in school, but I don’t think it gives even nearly as much knowledge as actually talking to people. So maybe I should just do that more.
I have a dream of traveling around seeking out to learn more about religion. Not just different kinds of religion, but maybe a greater understanding of the world around us and what spirituality actually is. I want to know.
Maybe I even want to be religious. I don’t know. I’m not sure it’s just something one can do. I’m comfortable with not being religious in any way, but I do feel empty in side.
But religion shouldn’t just be someting to fill an empty space, should it?
I don’t like to think of it as something that simple anyway. And this is maybe why I’m so fascinated. Having faith is not just something you can say you have; it’s something you actually have and I admire that.
It inspires me.
Hopefully people will one day accept all kinds of spirituality.